|10:56 pm - ....Daddy....|
So today my little brothers made a day trip to Los Lunas, New Mexico to see my dad, which is really only 2 and a half hours away from Las Cruces.
It got me thinking about my dad, and I have been thinking about him more than every lately.....I realized that I was very much abused in certain ways.
I wasn't really allowed to have any real friends around, it inconvienced him. He used to run Nikki out of the house when he felt like it, and embarass the hell out of me. Everything was major thing, he was always pulling me aside and having "a talk" with me.
I couldn't do anything: I was supposed to stay home ALL THE TIME. I was a teenager! What the hell!
There was always a family meeting, and he was always on my ass and my mom's to clean the house, and he was the one making the biggest messes. He used to come into my room weekly and accuse me of being a lesbian, when my walls were PLASTERED with Backstreet Boys posters.
So, I spent the other night, chain smoking and crying, and realizing that I hate to be alone because of him. Because I know he'll make an excuse not to come down here and see me.
My mom's boyfriend Kelly, who is the best guy and the sweetest, and a really good dad, can't understand why my dad is so selfish.
I think my dad hates me and I'm probably right.
Enough of that!:)
How is everyone? Charlotte, sorry I didn't IM you, I couldn't get to the computer. Love YOU!!!!!
Gold Dust Gypsy